It's funny reading my posts from months ago. I immediately asked myself "Was i really that emo? Was i really that mad and selfish?" It's crazy. I actually want to delete the post before this, but i guess it's fine cause it's what i was going through and thinking of at that time. I guess it could be a memory from the past, which i could just go back to from time to time and say to myself, "Hey, i survived."
I'm okay now. Yes, i still do feel sad sometimes, i mean that was my first heartbreak ever, who could blame me? I've accepted what has happened already; i'm not mad anymore. First of all, long distance relationships are really hard so i respect those couples who are in it and have actually made it through that obstacle. But the long distance relationship that i went through was hard because i do believe that he did break up with me for my own good. He didn't want me to miss the opportunities i have here overseas and that he knows i'd have a better life here compared to the life i would have in the Philippines. Before i thought that was just an excuse to get rid of me, but now i respect his decision.
It's sad though because we could have had it all. I mean the love we had for each other was never the issue, it's just the timing and the happenings. But it has already been 3 months since the break up, i've already cried a lot, i've done a lot of thinking, i've taken my friends' advices already and i'm now okay. I'm just 17 so i still have a lot of time to meet a new guy who can make me smile more and make me happier. I'm not focusing on that now though, since i am still in the process of moving on completely. And when that time comes, when i'm completely okay and over him, i can open up to the right guy and be genuinely happy.
Love,
TEP
