Unexpected meet up.

January 14, 2012. Had a chilled saturday night out with the boyfriend.

Thanks for being there for me.

You make me happy. 

He didn’t have any classes today so he picked me up after school at the train station. We basically didn’t know where to go so we decided to eat first at McDonalds. We were making a list of the things we wanted to do together. It was hilarious when he almost had a fight with this other guy ‘cause we were on a 4-seater table but Marc didn’t want him to sit there. But anyway after that we went to Arcaden and chilled there for a bit. Then we wanted to go to his cousin’s place but she wasn’t there. Later we just went to the supermarket where he bought me the chocolate he has been wanting to give me for days already. Afterwards, we went to his place. On the way there we had our first kiss. Apparently he wrote that on our list to do together earlier. We both just smiled afterwards. We arrived at his place later and chilled with his sister in her room. He played the guitar while his sister was singing. It was kind of nice to be there with them together. This day is nice :)

'Cause he makes me smile :)

Him: Babe at home na po ako :)

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• Me: Nice :) well you had an awesome friday night noh?
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• Him: Hindi naman po, hindi kita nakita eh :(
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• Me: Haha naaks naman babe. Pero aside from that, musta day mo? :)
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• Him: Boring na masaya.. Pero still it can't be put aside :(
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• Me: Awww babe, kaw talaga :P

She seriously surprised me when she wrote that. This conversation went on forever! But i obviously will only share that part of our conversation. 

“Guys come and go. But us? Pffft, we’re the definition of forever. “

Y SO SERIOUS?

Vanity and boredom attacks.

Halloween 2011

Halloween Party at Maha's. Decided to dress up first and prepare with the girlies before going there. Dressed as zombie school girl, both Izzie and Caro dressed as vampires and Nina dressed as a Cowgirl. 

Smile, cause that was so yesterday.

It's funny reading my posts from months ago. I immediately asked myself  "Was i really that emo? Was i really that mad and selfish?" It's crazy. I actually want to delete the post before this, but i guess it's fine cause it's what i was going through and thinking of at that time. I guess it could be a memory from the past, which i could just go back to from time to time and say to myself, "Hey, i survived."

I'm okay now. Yes, i still do feel sad sometimes, i mean that was my first heartbreak ever, who could blame me? I've accepted what has happened already; i'm not mad anymore. First of all, long distance relationships are really hard so i respect those couples who are in it and have actually made it through that obstacle. But the long distance relationship that i went through was hard because i do believe that he did break up with me for my own good. He didn't want me to miss the opportunities i have here overseas and that he knows i'd have a better life here compared to the life i would have in the Philippines. Before i thought that was just an excuse to get rid of me, but now i respect his decision.

It's sad though because we could have had it all. I mean the love we had for each other was never the issue, it's just the timing and the happenings. But it has already been 3 months since the break up, i've already cried a lot, i've done a lot of thinking, i've taken my friends' advices already and i'm now okay. I'm just 17 so i still have a lot of time to meet a new guy who can make me smile more and make me happier. I'm not focusing on that now though, since i am still in the process of moving on completely. And when that time comes, when i'm completely okay and over him, i can open up to the right guy and be genuinely happy.

Love,
TEP