22 months and still counting.

Honestly, on the 30th of March, it didn't to mind that it was our monthsary that day. I was busy focusing on presentations and school work that i totally blanked out on what day it was. I received a message saying "Happy monthsary, I love you" during our physics class this morning and i totally flipped out. But i guess it's also because time was running way too fast that i didn't feel like a month had passed by already.


Last month it was a chaos for us. Well i was totally being very dramatic about a lot of things because i was so stressed with having problems about a lot of stuff that i needed a break. I totally made it hard for my boyfriend and made sudden decisions, which i regret doing. At that time, the whole distance was killing me. It was so hard to be away from him because i needed him so much and i missed him so much. But i couldn't do anything about it that i came to the conclusion that he needs to be happier and that he deserves to be happy without someone giving him a hard time. I thought i was doing the right thing for him, but i guess i wasn't.  I also thought about being happy by myself here and be open about changes and possibly a new me. I thought maybe i needed to be more open with other friends and to expect the unexpected. But no, i wasn't happy at all. When i had no contact with my boyfriend for a couple of weeks, i felt so lonely and sad. I was jealous of other random girls that i see being in contact with him, because i was so scared that they can actually take him away from me. But though i was jealous, i didn't tell him that and i didn't show him that. I guess it was because i felt like i had no right anymore to say that, and i also thought it was going to be his choice wether or not to fall for them. I wanted to give him the freedom to do what he wants to be happy.


After a couple of weeks, i gave in. I told him that i missed him so much and that i want us to be okay again. It was very awkward at first but we eventually went back to the normal us. We message each other more everyday, and we tell each other stories of everything that's been happening. I've learned that it's true that when you love a person, you should set that person free when you think they're having a hard time on you. But i guess for me, i just have to know that it takes 2 people to decide on that. It takes a lot of communication, patience, trust and love.

I'm Back!

Okay, i don't use this as much anymore. I guess i just want to start using this again so that i can express what i feel when i'm happy, sad, or mad.

Right now? I am happy :)

Czech Republic: 10th Grade Class Trip

September, 2010 - 10th Grade

A few of many pics taken during our 4 days and 3 nights class trip in Prague, Czech Republic.

 

A great day to remember

Wow, where can i start. October 18, 2009.
i woke up at around 7:10 in the morning to prepare. My plan for that day was to go to church for the last time at Nazarene and to meet up with old friends. I was with two friends of mine when i arrived at church. It was great to be in that place again after some time. After church i got to hang out with two of my old church mates or two of my buds. It was so much fun talking, laughing and hanging out with them again. After quite some time, My friend was acting kind of weird, i was feeling something fishy. But then i erased that thought of mine and went on with the flow. After some time we headed to my other friend and then left to go somewhere. I thought we were going to my friend's house because that was the plan. My head was full of question marks when we got out of the tricycle and i saw the Clarissa Resort sign. After a few step my two friends then took out a blindfold out of their bags and began to cover my eyes. That was the time when i now know everything. But then of course i was still wondering why they were doing that. Then we arrived at the place, i was so shocked to see every one of my friends there. Even two teachers of ours were there to surprise me. Gosh i couldn't explain my emotions then. But i can say it was the greatest feeling ever. The greatest day ever.


Special thanks to Euriklea Estrada who planned the party. Also to Ma'am  Guillet and Enriquez who were there. Also to my two buds/churchmates - you know who you are :D
And thanks to my whole batch.
Seniors of LUCI o9-1o.


The best kayo. You guys made my day yesterday. I love you guys.

TEP. signing out.

What a morning!

This morning, October 9, 2009 at approximately 3 o'clock in the morning; my father woke my sister and I up. He was shouting "baha!" meaning flood. When my sister and I heard that, we couldn't believe it because we were in the second floor of the apartment we are currently renting. When we got out of the bed, it was only then that we believed our dad. To make things worst, there was no electricity but good thing we had a big flashlight to help us.
We then got a dustpan, a mop, boots and raincoat for our dad to use. He went outside to the balcony and realized that the problem occured outside. The whole day and night, the rain kept pouring non-stop and the water in our balcony wouldn't go down, forcing the water to enter the second floor of our house. Thank God that the first floor wasn't wet at all because most of our electronic stuff were kept there. After around 30 minutes we managed to take out the water inside the room. Gosh, what an experience.
Thank God nothing happened to us. Thank God our things weren't ruined.


Wow. I'll never forget this.
TEP.

Rollercoaster Ride

Wow. I had the most hectic weekend of my life. Kinda like a roller coaster i should say 'cause everything's going great but things suddenly surprise me out of no where. Well anyway it's all fine now and i thank God for that - answered prayers.

Well, anyways hectic schedule also. And we have around 4 days to pack. Gosh, to be honest, our house is such a mess. Can't believe there's even room to walk around here. *laughs And our final exam's next week already. Gosh, i'm so not in the mood to study anymore. My mind is revolving around Germany and the things needed to be done before i leave. *sigh , so frustrating. I'm happy, but so confused. *laughs.

Need to research now. And do my homework. And make an article. And help pack.
ROLLER COASTER. The word for my week. (:


TEP. signing off.

The Best Few Weeks Left

Everything is turning out great. Far from what i expected. Gosh, i've tried many "firsts" these past few weeks. Very funny i should say. I tried for the first time to be embarrased about my "visitor" but it was okay for most. Broadway musical was the best. I also tried dancing for the doxology during teacher's day. It was great! even if i had a mistake on my turn. And dinner with my friends after the event. Well need i say more? The best! So fun. lakas trip or out of the world experience. Imagine us all in formal attires? And there comes September 30, the day i won't forget. *smiles

Hay, everyone is making me feel like i'm not going away yet and i thank them for it. Though some are already saying goodbye which i can't blame them for doing 'cause i'm doing the same thing. *laughs.

Think about it, there's so many things and so many people for me to miss but they only have me to miss. Kind of unfair to be honest. But yes, life will go on as I always say.



Sweetdreams. Signing off.
TEP.